So anyway, that post is for Zhenxuan only. Was reluctant to go to school today but since its the last day of school for sec ones & twos & due to PTC, i went.

Thanks giving ceremony during the first 2 or 3 periods, then proceed back to class to do some clean-ups, Mom came and went to find Mr ong. Complain & complain & complain about my attire, next year you see me i become nerd already ah! Haha. Went back to class after PTC, slcaked until end of school.

Homed & to 438 in the afternoon, suprisingly, this time Caiying & Kaili came. It started to rain around 5 plus so we went up to 25th floor to blow wind. So many things happened, haha. Went to eat and came back to dad’s house

Gonna turn in early today, tomorrow’s my big day.

Goodnight, peeps.

The days feel like years…

I will be officially 15 years old in just a day + few hours & I will never forget the person who is just a day older then me, Zhenxuan. Though (now) not the closest friend of mine, i could not have escape the reality without him sometimes. I know i can confide everything to him, i can give him all my trust without any doubt & someone whom i can mingle with

Almost every month i will hear him teasing me with these sentence “One day smaller!”, confirm one! Mark the word every month! But i have to be grateful that he will be there for me whenever i am down or depressed or having friendship/relationship problems, always know how to make me laugh/smile/ANGRY when i am not in good mood during school days and BLARDY BANG WHICHEVER TABLE THAT I AM SLEEPING ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Big THANKS to you man! -’- (haha)

So anyway, i wanna wish you Happy Birthday and am sorry that we couldn’t celebrate this birthday with you. Thanks for being so caring, understanding and helpful man. Rock on, KXG ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Hi its me again.

Its reaching 4am in just five more minutes, there’s school later sia!!!!!!! Anyway, i havent been watching my diet lately & i think i gain weight again!!!!!!!!!

I have no idea why my craving for playing basketball vanished into thin air & its approximately 1-2 weeks since i last played. Argh.

I am not going to bring my wallet to school for this week because! MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING k, i don’t know why i am all excited for this year’s birthday.. haha but i don’t feel like celebrating.

Random post, gonna play games already

It just feels so great to have long posts for the past few days, and i wished i can update my blog constantly like this

K, i feels so bored now & BTW, today is 24 Oct and that means, its Jonathan’s Birthday Chalet!!!! I don’t think any of us is going later, cos basically, tomorrow is Sis birthday too and i have to celebrate at Mom’s place this night & Dad’s place tomorrow morning. Sometimes, it is just too difficult to decide which house to celebrate despite the fact that they had been divorced for so many years. & also a rather sad thing because we’d only have 24 hours to celebrate with so many people, e.g, Dad, Mom, Siblings and friends. Maybe a few years later, when i’d earned enough money, i might open a party and celebrate with everyone and drag Mom & Dad to the party too. Haiz

Boring Saturday, not many people online and i have been chatting with Shueting in Plurk. Haha, Bro just left the house T.T

Took some photos today,

dumb photos. tsk

I’m officially missing you..

There’s no one to missed… Single life is so great. (: Its been a long time since i had a crush on someone & i almost forget how’s the feeling to be crushing on a person. HAHA, K RANDOM.

It had been a great day today, especially with all the running and sweats that came out from all our efforts. Today’s sec 3 post-exams activity was a “marathon” at Amk West Garden, only half of our class participated in this activity as the rest went to help out with YOG stuffs, a mother & a younger sister of our Sec 2 schoolmate, Auntie Jenny & Samantha, joined us in the activity together with Mr Ong. Our class group wasn’t really motivated and all awhile restless during that period of time, as a group leader, i thought that i must have the initiative to encourage my group members to motivate them. Just a little words for them: Hey peeps, sorry that i’d made you all sweat so much, although we didn’t make it to the first place, at least we put in efforts and completed the whole activity right? Must thank me ah!!!!!!!

Haha, sorry, just being bhb la After completing the marathon, went to Macs, saw many familiar faces. And my beloved Prema is married!!!!!!!!! Awww, kinda miss her a lot man  I’mma gonna visit them often

Pictures for today,  credits to: Menghui’s & Rebecca’s phone, Photographer: The chio & cute leader, peifan

And lastly, My personal Favourite from Rebecca’s phone:

Um, Uh, Orh.

What a day today… I thought that going to school will make me so stressed but it does the same despite not going to school.

I think i am having depression, i have a few of depression symptoms.

1. Depressed Mood ✔

A person may report feeling “sad” or “empty” or may cry frequently. Children and adolescents may exhibit irritability.

2. Decreased Interest or Pleasure

A person may show markedly diminished interest or pleasure in all, or almost all, daily activities.

3. Weight Changes ✔

Significant changes in weight when not attempting to gain or lose (a gain or loss of 5% or more in a month) may be indicative of depression. In children, this may also present as a failure to make expected weight gains.

4. Sleep Disturbances ✔

Insomnia or sleeping too much may be a symptom of depression.

6. Fatigue ✔

7. Feelings of Worthlessness or Guilt ✔

8. “Brain Fog”

A depressed person may have a diminished ability to think, concentrate or make decisions.

9. Thoughts of Death ✔

I have to stay strong… to stay strong.. to stay strong……. to stay strong.. stay strong…… stay strong…. stay strong, to stay strong, stay….. strong.

Whenever i asked myself ” what happened to me, why am i feeling stressed/upset/sad”, i cannot even answer myself. I know there’s been a change in me recently, like getting agitated for nothing, getting emotional for nothing, & seriously i couldn’t find an explanation to this. I thought of many things today, everyone have changed, friendships have been drifting like a fuck, all of us not talking to each other, communications getting lesser & lesser. But whom of any of us in the clique really cares?( thats only in my thought, maybe you cared..) You tell me huh…

Actually, part of me have been telling me not to bother about things like this but how could i bare to do this….? Its just like not saving a dying family member. Sometimes i really have no idea why we have to go on till an extent like this. Everyone’s hating one another….

I JUST WANNA SAY SORRY TO SOME OF YOU OUT THERE WHO HAS BEEN TOLERATING MY TEMPER. I KNOW I MIGHT NOT BE THE SAME PEIFAN AGAIN.. BUT THATS NOT THE END OF THE WORLD YA,

THANK YOU GUYS FOR BEING THERE FOR ME WHENEVER I AM ANGRY OR SAD, HONESTLY, I KNOW SAYING SORRY/THANK YOU CANNOT GIVE YOU GUYS AN EXPLANATION ON WHAT HAPPENED TO ME BUT STILL SORRY & THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH…. ITS REALLY AN HEART BREAKING EXPERIENCE TO SEE YOU ALL GETTING SCOLDED BY ME. ESPECIALLY TO MENGHUI, SHOUTING AT YOU ON YOUR BIRTHDAY.. SERIOUSLY VERY SORRY ABOUT IT.

To Charlotte, Menghui, Shueting, Jialing & Michelle:

I Love You all so much, i never expect we would became like this. I am so sorry that it happened. I wanna say i love you guys, thanks & sorry girls. I know i have to try to change, turn back into the very forgiving & bubbly & loving & cute & very very very guailan de peifan. Can i just turn back the clock or fast forward the time and leave PHS heartlessly?

Sigh…. Please reply me upon seeing this post.

Maybe its too late to really apologize, i am feeling some guilt in me.. i don’t know who to talk to cos i can’t say this out. I sincerely apologize to that someone. Sorry

Was down with fever past 3 days!

Hi, i am finally back to update. Life…. hm, not that bad eventually but better then the past few weeks. Today, i had a dream, a dream i can remember but a very weird yet interesting dream & i am missing it.

Everything started as i joined into a new company working as a CID/Paranomal Group thingy, i was assigned to this guy called…. maybe federick(as i can’t remember the names, i will name them myself) and to be instructed by him and 3 of his assistants. One day, 5 of us went to went on a mission to dunno detect what underground, which is filled with water above knee. Herds of shark started to swim in our direction where blue lightnings appeared but they didn’t have the intention to eat us and we managed to survive. Few days later, I got to know Federick and his assistants better and was instructed to go on a mission with Evon & Claire. After a long day, we settled down(it was night time, btw) at Khatib’s Mac Donald to grab a bite & met Toon Yee and his Mother. Weird stuffs (like a projector screening words/pictures on the air) start to appear outside the window, finally we saw an orange angel from a far distance and it flew away after a glance from me. Evon told to call Federick but Claire assumed that it was not necessary. Many had called the police to report missing things from their home, and i woke up. You people might not understand what i am talking la, HAHA.

Spent my whole day using computer. Boring Saturday, goodnight