I need some ciggs..

& i am missing you so badly, sometimes i really wondered why we just stopped contacting each other..

Arghh.. I am sad, anyone cheer me up?

So when you feel like hope is gone,

Look inside you and be strong….

Today i thought of something while we(FookChoy & Jerom) are on our way to Sim Lim Square which Mr Choo recently showed us in Science class..

What if one day when i woke up and see nothing, nobody around me, only fire and ashes around…

What if i try to call out for Mum, Bro, Sis and Dad and got no response from any of them..

Then trying to search for a phone to call my friends was of  no avail…

And the usual pedestrians, bus, construction workers, buses, cars, motors,  lorries on the road wasn’t there anymore…

Also the butterflies/moths, cats and dogs, the beautiful “garden” outside my house, and everything disappeared in a sudden…

No HDB flats, no bus stops, no MRT stations, no school, no nothing, neither family members nor friends anymore…

Well, what am i going to do without anyone out there for me anymore? i wonder, i really wonder..

Please cherish everyone you loved around you from today onwards. Everybody dies but not everyone lives…. Don’t regret.

Happy New Year All!

Tell you guys something okay? Don’t say out leh, dun tell anybody please :X

Okay, here goes..

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I am feeling drunk.

Just had a can of tiger an hour ago, now my head is spinning. Anyway, love those who came my house yesterday. Muacks :)!

This world is full of PMSED LUNATICS.

Mood: Apathetic & feel like smothering myself.

This year, i’d abandoned many old friends and new friends.. I have been going out to play basketball with my classmates even though i know i have bad basketball skills. I’d tolerated many discrimination about how i played basketball from people since the very day i step into the basketball court since sec 1. I’d never blame anyone before.. but i tried, i really tried my best to improve but i still cant. I am afraid to dribble through people in the court. I am afraid to shoot the ball because i know i am a lousy shooter and i know every now and then, there is people going to “gai” my ball. But today.. I suddenly felt the worthlessness playing basketball after so long.. Maybe i shall stop playing basketball.

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Maybe i should stop updating my blog with emo post.

Met up with Samuel for dinner with Caiying yesterday. I asked her to accompany me to set the awkwardness level down because its been such a long time since i saw him and meeting up suddenly will be a little weird. Went to slack and decided to ask Fookchoy-.- down for an hour of Pool game. Then home.

….. i don’t know what to blog.. can someone give me inspirations?!

I really don’t understand why i have this kind of ………..

I really want you to come but………will you?

Sigh.

Just because somebody flirts with you, doesn’t mean they like you.
Just because somebody likes you, doesn’t mean they want to go out with out.
Just because somebody goes out with you, doesn’t mean they love you.
Just because somebody loves you, doesn’t mean they won’t hurt you.

Guess its time to blog. Well, Mom just brought me a phone recently, i felt that i’d just fulfilled one of my wishes although its not the phone i wanted. But this time, i will never overestimate my bills. Although i have unlimited msges, yet i’d set a limitation between 300-900 msges a month. Still a lot though, but i will control.

Lame.

K la, i dunno what to blog about. but aleast i did blog. Blah.

If everyday was like this:

I hate Hong Jia Yi la, she has been neglecting me for Volleyball Sigh…..

Hahaha, lame la.. I still love you as much, flower ^^

I think i will blog soon ba…

I am like boiling now… please stop making me angry.
Sis is going to Japan tmr, sigh… gonna miss you, takecare k

& They’re off to Taman…

Monday

I spent the longwinded night using computer and wished the time could move faster than ever, i was so excited to meet Shueting for our breakfast and finally the alarm on my phone hit 3.25 A.M. I quickly grabbed the phone lying beside me and dialed Shueting’s number to wake her up. I got ready around 4.05 A.M and went down to meet her. It was cold and i opened my front door, i made my way to the lift and a chill went down my spine, i shivered, it’s been a long time since i went out so early in the morning when everyone were still asleep, though the feeling of walking outside the corridor alone was scary.

Her bag pack was bloated like a pregnant woman’s stomach. She claimed it was heavy so i volunteered to switch bags, and it wasn’t heavy at all! Maybe for me — that is. Had an (especially) short and fast walk to Mac, its not like during the normal days when Shueting and i would have a long and sweaty walk. Settled down, and went to order our food. Joked and talked and i almost cried,

” I feel so happy with you sia” said shueting, giggling.

“of course la, ha ha” i exclaimed.

I was texting Charlotte and waiting for her family’s and Menghui’s arrival at Mac Donald, so we can eat and rushed to Shelter to meet the rest. Luckily Charlotte’s dad fetched us there, if not we will never make there in time. Well, the first person sitting there waiting for us was Jialing, her face were pale. People from 3A were easily spotted from the bridge as everyone was wearing green. I gave colleen a big big hug and cried, it was expected and i couldn’t stop my tears from coming out. I gave all the girls a very big and tight hug, wanting them to be back safely, “i will miss you” i said.

Went in the school and was granted permission to send them off, the Parade Square was already filled with campers in red, blue, yellow, green and some with bermudas, basketball short but most of them was in track pants. Settled down on the floor with thousands of bag packs lying around. The day turned bright and it was about time they left, i hugged them goodbye. Menghui and i exited the school gate and went to the other gate to send them off in bus. I just couldn’t hold back my tears.

Menghui decided to come over and sleep, received many messages and reminiscence the times when the rest were hanging out with us till we fall asleep. By the time i woke up, it was 2 P.M, Mom and Sis had left the house leaving me, Menghui and my bro at home. Didn’t have any plans so went down to have lunch and chill out at Bubble Tea, then decided to dye hair, walked a distance to buy the cream and headed back my home.

It was around 5 P.M before we start dyeing and ended at 8.15 P.M sharp, Menghui went home. I am really happy with this new hair color, although it doesn’t blend in with my other part of hair as i only dyed a small amount of hair. Thank you Menghui for helping me, you’d really have a potential in it eh. Ha Ha, i am sorry that there isn’t any color on your hair though.

So Menghui and i basically spent Monday like that……

Today

I was rotting at home the whole day, Menghui wasn’t free to go out. I read finished Missing Persons - Case #4: The Unsuspecting Gourmet by M.E. Rabb. Eventually having nothing to do, i read the book again, it turned out to be nicer to read the book the second time. Ha Ha, i am going back to the school library to borrow Case #1, #2 and #3.

Yeah, thats about it i guess………  I am waiting patiently for their return. Gonna meet Menghui tomorrow. Good night.

P/S: Its good to blog once awhile because i’ll have long posts

Love is simple.

Having them to be by my side, what else can i ask for more?

Dear everyone,

Two days later, no, make it a day later since its almost twelve am soon, they will be out of Singapore in a bus heading to Taman Nergara. Time had passed in a blink of an eye, just like we will be graduating next week. I wanna delicate this song to my whole class:

Pause your song and listen to it.

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Chinese Lyrics

你又想起某個夏天 熱鬧海岸線

記憶中的那個少年 驕傲的宣言

伸出雙手就能擁抱全世界

相信所有的夢想一定會實現

一切看起來都不會太遙遠

轉眼之間過幾年

輕浮的語言都已慢慢沈澱

即使難免會變得更加洗煉

我們不曾妥協

那是我們都回不去的從前

幸好還可以堅持當時的信念

世界嘗試改變

當初的那個少年

那是我們都回不去的從前

當你站在那個夏天的海岸線

我們還是心裡面

那個偏執的少年

Hanyu Pinyin

ni you xiang qi mo ge xia tian re nao hai an xian

ji yi zhong de na ge shao nian jiao ao de xüan yan

shen chu shuang shou jiu neng yong bao qüan shi jie

xiang xin suo you de meng xiang yi ding hui shi xian

yi qie kan qi lai dou bu hui tai yao yüan

chuan yan zhi jian guo ji nian

qing fu de yü yan dou yi man man chen dian

ji shi nan mian hui bian de gen jia xi lian

wo men bu cen tuo xie

na shi wo men dou hui bu qü de cong qian

xin hao hai ke yi jian chi dang shi de xin nian

shi jie chang shi gai bian

dang chu de na ge shao nian

na shi wo men dou hui bu qü de cong qian

dang ni zhan zai na ge xia tian de hai an xian

wo men hai shi xin li mian

na ge pian zhi de shao nian

English Translation

You thought of that summer again, the bustling shoreline

The youngster within my memory, an arrogant declaration

Holding out my two arms I could embrace the entire world

Believing that all the dreams would come true

Nothing seemed too far away

In the blink of an eye, how many years have passed

The drifting language already slowly submerges

Even if the inescapable becomes more refined

We haven’t compromised yet

That is the past that we can never return to

Fortunately we can still continue believing in the faith that we had

The world attempts to change

that original youngster

That is the past that we can never return to

Once you stood on that shoreline that summer

Inside our hearts we are still

those stubborn youngsters

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I know after graduating, not everyone of us will contact each other, maybe including me, but i just want to let you all know, you guys had gave me the feeling of love, bonding,  etc… Its a feeling that i’d never recieved before even from my family.

Thanks Charlotte, Menghui, Shueting, Jialing, Michelle, Sweeheng, Dina, Caiying, Rebecca, Colleen, Waimeng, Zhenxuan, Shane, Ivan, Edward, Gardner, Enjian, Deon, San Jose, Shaun, Aaron, Zejiang, Terrence, FookChoy, Jeremy, Jerom, Aylwin, Alvin, Kaili, Boston, Ezra, Lavon, Toon Yee. You guys left your ______(fill in the blanks) in my heart, i will never forget you all.

P/S: Yesterday was last day i saw the whole lots in 3A . Will we be having a class outing during the hols? Can we have it? Takecare everyone, especially those who’re going to Taman Nergara, imma gonna miss you all, i swear!!!! Its going to be a quiet week. Come back quickly and safely PLEASE!

PP/S: argh, i feel like crying now D:

PPP/S: i missed miss Kumari D:

Yours Sincerely,

PEIFAN